Do you ever have a memory that u have been thinkin bout fo a long time, not remembering the memory, then it comes back for 2 seconds and new memorys open up, then it just all shutds down, you forget everything that u remembered, then u feel like yous goin trough a time warping paradox, nothing makes sense, whats the point? what is this all for? why does that happen? is it deja vu? was it really a memory that i had? was my brain protecting me? whats happening? the thought feels complete, but it keeps coming back and i cant think of it for too long/ too much or it fades away instantly and the paradox repeats itself is it a simulation? I know too much about her. I wish i could go back to where it didn't make sense, where i thought everything was normal, i was unknowing I remember, i was young, and i didn't know anything about her, and i just moved along, not really caring about nun, now i regret it all because it feels like somethings incomplete, or somethings too complete. what is this? who is this girl im talkin bout? Is this a feeling of regret? faded limerence? depression? why? It's fine tho